Now girls, let us not shirk our blogging duties and shining hopes so early on!
My past few days have sucked. Bad eating, bad drama, bad school, bad exercise. I'm not off the wagon, but I'm teetering a bit. A lot bit. But here's to tomorrow being a better day.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Cause I Have To
So I have nothing really productive to say, but I promised I'd post at least once a day on here so.... here's goes.
Actually, I think I'll take this opportunity to share some tasty-looking yet healthy recipes.
First up: Grilled Pepper, Onion and Sausage Calzones!
http://find.myrecipes.com/recipes/recipefinder.dyn?action=displayRecipe&recipe_id=1906368
Even found a dessert: Grilled Banana Splits
http://find.myrecipes.com/recipes/recipefinder.dyn?action=displayRecipe&recipe_id=1886344
Of course, I can't make this one cause I don't have a grill, but oh well!
Actually, I think I'll take this opportunity to share some tasty-looking yet healthy recipes.
First up: Grilled Pepper, Onion and Sausage Calzones!
http://find.myrecipes.com/recipes/recipefinder.dyn?action=displayRecipe&recipe_id=1906368
Even found a dessert: Grilled Banana Splits
http://find.myrecipes.com/recipes/recipefinder.dyn?action=displayRecipe&recipe_id=1886344
Of course, I can't make this one cause I don't have a grill, but oh well!
Argh
No workout yesterday. First time since Sunday. I'm really sore and I went on a bit of a fit and cleaned my whole apartment. Like, on my knees, scrubbing shower grime. I burned a bit doing that, I feel sure. For two whole hours.
Eating has been pretty on par. Still eating more often, smaller meals. Slipped once, ate half a pint of ice cream... Ben ate the rest, thank goodness. Aside from that, my calorie count has been decent, still a little low, but that should be good right? And it's all been coming from pretty good places.
It's Thursday... I have till Sunday to notice improvement, as per what I said before. Not an ounce different yet. Bleh. What's the point?
Eating has been pretty on par. Still eating more often, smaller meals. Slipped once, ate half a pint of ice cream... Ben ate the rest, thank goodness. Aside from that, my calorie count has been decent, still a little low, but that should be good right? And it's all been coming from pretty good places.
It's Thursday... I have till Sunday to notice improvement, as per what I said before. Not an ounce different yet. Bleh. What's the point?
A Short Post
...because I woke up in such a dang good mood this morning, I want to share.
I can't even describe how rewarded I feel. For the first time in a long time (probably since late HS), I'm really, truly happy with what I'm doing. I picked nursing, or, nursing picked me, and I feel already like I've settled into my calling. On my way driving home from Dolly's apartment last night, it struck me: my purpose in this life is to share my joy, my light, my hope, my love, my optimism, and bring healing to people in whatever form Healing is needed in each individual. I am my name. I was created to help. I suffered through the trials of early HS and late college so that I could grow sympathy, compassion, and a heart for others. I was shown selfless love so that I could show it to anyone, everyone. I was shown hurt so that I could understand hurt.
On top of all that semi-deep nonsense, again, for the first time in a long time, I woke up when my first (of three) alarms went off, I auto-piloted on turning it off, and I laid back down, expecting that wave of defeat and pain to pass through me like it does most mornings, the feeling of "How can I do this? How can I fight another day? I've fought for too long, and I'm tired; I'm weary to my soul." You know what? It didn't. I laid there for about 15 minutes before I decided, "You know what? I'm ready for today. I'm ready to spread what light I can spread over the next 18 hours. Whatever I have in me to give today, I want to give; I'm ready to give again."
I know how a single unexpected smile or kind word can turn a no-good, awful, horrible, terrible day into an amazing one. I know how some simple gesture can fill a day with warmth. And that's what I do. That's who I am.
I can't even describe how rewarded I feel. For the first time in a long time (probably since late HS), I'm really, truly happy with what I'm doing. I picked nursing, or, nursing picked me, and I feel already like I've settled into my calling. On my way driving home from Dolly's apartment last night, it struck me: my purpose in this life is to share my joy, my light, my hope, my love, my optimism, and bring healing to people in whatever form Healing is needed in each individual. I am my name. I was created to help. I suffered through the trials of early HS and late college so that I could grow sympathy, compassion, and a heart for others. I was shown selfless love so that I could show it to anyone, everyone. I was shown hurt so that I could understand hurt.
On top of all that semi-deep nonsense, again, for the first time in a long time, I woke up when my first (of three) alarms went off, I auto-piloted on turning it off, and I laid back down, expecting that wave of defeat and pain to pass through me like it does most mornings, the feeling of "How can I do this? How can I fight another day? I've fought for too long, and I'm tired; I'm weary to my soul." You know what? It didn't. I laid there for about 15 minutes before I decided, "You know what? I'm ready for today. I'm ready to spread what light I can spread over the next 18 hours. Whatever I have in me to give today, I want to give; I'm ready to give again."
I know how a single unexpected smile or kind word can turn a no-good, awful, horrible, terrible day into an amazing one. I know how some simple gesture can fill a day with warmth. And that's what I do. That's who I am.
I am.
Moar. Drama.
Yes.
Didn't work out today, bleh. I need to either move my energy drink to earlier in the day or stop drinking them. They keep me up too late and so I don't wake up well in the morning. Lame.
Might work out tomorrow. Pharm test on Friday ughhh. Hmm, I could bring my notes with me to the gym and walk instead of run... hmmmm.
Good day today overall. Turned in my promotion application at work, we'll see what happens there.
Didn't work out today, bleh. I need to either move my energy drink to earlier in the day or stop drinking them. They keep me up too late and so I don't wake up well in the morning. Lame.
Might work out tomorrow. Pharm test on Friday ughhh. Hmm, I could bring my notes with me to the gym and walk instead of run... hmmmm.
Good day today overall. Turned in my promotion application at work, we'll see what happens there.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Dreadddd
Did well today. Amanda baked cupcakes. Thirty-six of them. And I did not eat a single one. I went to the gym and lifted weights again. It's tomorrow that is the problem. On Thursdays, I actually have to go to the gym and do cardio. This week in my workout plan I am only supposed to do 20 minutes, so it's not that bad, but I am still dreading it.
On another random note, does anyone else enjoy sore muscles? I am finding that I do. I kind of feel like a bad ass cause I know I'm getting some nice definition. Or that I will in a few weeks.
On another random note, does anyone else enjoy sore muscles? I am finding that I do. I kind of feel like a bad ass cause I know I'm getting some nice definition. Or that I will in a few weeks.
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